Saturday, May 8, 2010
sometimes feelings can suck. i want to know why it is easier to be sad and miserable rather than happy and content? i mean why is it that you find it easier to feel sorry for yourself than be happy for what you have? once you get into that mode of despair everything goes down hill from there. there's no turning back. at least that's what i've found. it's like one of those moods where you're sad but you're not. you're happy but you're not. and you just wish you could go to sleep to escape it all. when i get down like this i feel as though the whole world is crashing down on me. i know, i know, drama queen, but that's what feelings can do to you. everything feels ten times worse than it really is. it feels like the world is ending when certain feelings over take you and it just down right sucks. it's so easy to say, just deal with them or that they will go away but when you're in the middle of the awfulness it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. i have no clue what i'm trying to get at, i'm just babbling i guess. i don't even know.