what else can i do...

- i fake a smile usually because i don't know what else to do...
- i am starting to get comfortable with the idea that i am not ordinary and that there's nothing wrong with that...
- sometimes the weight of my sadness is bone crushing, like the pressure of water down deep...
- i cry when you hug me because of the emptiness and pain i know i'll feel when you finally do let go...
- i am so incredibly mean to myself. i would never talk to any other person the way that i talk to myself...
- what i want most is to just hear that i'm okay just as i am, even if my natural state isn't common, normal, or cool...
- i hate being needy yet i long to be taken care of...
- i simultaneously crave both fitting in and standing out. i feel like a failure when i'm different, and i feel like a failure when i blend...
- i always feel like a burden...
- i only pretend to be immature: i'm scared to show you just how serious and deep i can be...
- even when it doesn't look like it, i'm trying the best i know how at the moment...
- i feel like i'm searching for something but i'm not sure what...
- when i piece together another part of my puzzle i feel good on the inside...
- i want to lay out in the rain and just let it wash away my past...
- i like being alone but when i'm alone i'd rather be with people and when i'm with people i'd rather be alone...